Me: I’m just so tired.
You: I know. Just don’t get too tired okay.
Is there such a thing as a safe place?
When I saw you I cried, I ran up to you, hugged and kissed you.
I told you how much I missed you, missed your voice,
laugh
smile
warmth.
You smiled at me, and your hands turned cold and your face began
to disappear.
I woke up.
My heart hurts.
I keep asking myself, “When am I going to be beautiful?”
And I’m afraid, someday soon, I will wake up an old woman
and realize how beautiful I was.
And I will mourn for the girl I once was,
and how foolish she was for not loving herself.
You: “I’m sorry”
Me: “Its fine”
You: “No its not”
Me: “I know”
But suffice to say, ms. ***** was unhappy and wanted to move on.
I told my best friend about my latest attempt.
She turned and said:
“Why are you always trying to leave me?”
I look out my window and see a large black crow glaring at me.
Death is coming for me.
Said you had to leave to start your life over.
I was like, no please.
stay here.
Do you ever think about walking into a vast body of water and disappearing?
I do.
